When you pass thorugh the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you. Isaiah 43:2
On Friday, December 4th, my father went in for an MRI. They found a tumor the size of a golf ball in his right frontal lobe. It is large enough that it has pushed his brain over 7mm. He has been suffering from the side effects of this for a while now. I noticed changes in him almost immediately when I returned from China. It doesn't matter how long it has been there. What matters now is the future.
My father, Paul, and Jade
Today, we head to the hospital for his brain surgery. They are going to be able to remove it. Praise the Lord! The surgery should last only 2 hours. My father is very pleased with the surgeon he has and has great faith in his ability. They will do a biopsy on the mass. It could take up to 10 days to receive the results. After reviewing the MRI and looking at my father's history with cancer, 3 out of the 4 possibilities could cancer. I serve a MIGHTY God. He is NOT a God of probabilities. He is BIGGER than all the scenarios we can put together in our heads. I am praying for another miracle. Two and a half years ago, he cured his previous cancer. I know He is still in the MIRACLE BUSINESS and can do it again. For that matter, he can make it so there is NO cancer.
One of the challenges Dad faces in recovery is his ability to fight off infection. He has diabetes. The doctors have had him on a steroid to reduce the swelling prior to surgery. This will also hopefully help in his ability to fight off any infection.
Whatever He allows into our family's lives, I know it will be for a purpose. I can't explain why these things happen to people. I just have watched God walk people through these things. They may be dark, nasty, horrible things but He loves each of us enough that He promises not to leave us in the middle of them. He takes us THROUGH them. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13. I know in my own life, He took me through some very dark and horrible things that I would not wish upon my enemy but THROUGH it, I eventually came to know Jesus as my Savior.
I had always known about Jesus. I knew He was born of a virgin, came to save us from our sins, died on a cross, rose again 3 days later and will come again but I NEVER KNEW HIM! I knew OF Him but didnt' have a personal relationship with Him. That is the difference. I had to go through some really awful things before I was ready to humble myself and realize I needed a Savior. Only then did I call upon Him and sought Him with ALL my heart. I came to know that Jesus was there as my best friend. He was there when I couldn't get someone on the phone. He was there when I was crying in my car on the way to work. He was there when I was suffering anxiety attacks and nothing before ever stopped them. He was there as I went off meds for depression and felt like I was in a deep dark pit and there was no way out. I can now look back on times in my life before I knew Him that I know He was there. Those really dark things that could have had far worse endings, He was there then too. He protected me then even though I wasn't trusting in Him but only in myself to take care of me. My prayer is that through this brain tumor, my family will come to know Him and trust in Him alone.
When times are rough, there is nothing greater than the peace you receive from Jesus. He carries you when you don't think you can go on. He gives you strength to endure. If you don't know Him as your best friend, ask Him into your life. Admit to Him that you are a sinner and you no longer want to do it on your own. Ask Him to be your Savior. He is standing right beside you with His hand stretched out to you. He just wants you to reach for Him. He will never make you take His hand. You will never regret it if you do.